#1 is beginning to feel normal. It’s #4 taking me out now. The inability to care for self? Whewwww. Dangerous. Dangerous.

I have allowed myself to be conditioned to consider others before I consider me. It’s a lift to be different here because I unintentionally operate in a kind of grace not often reciprocated. And when that grace is a byproduct of my own will—not God’s? The fallout is catastrophic! Every complaint I complain is a result of this one thing.